We leave for Rezekne in a couple of hours (it's where Anatoly and his family live, only about half an hour from Zosna). The plan for the morning is to hit up the pancake house again for breakfast, then swing back by the hostel to pick up our bags on our way to the train station, where we'll catch a train for Rezekne.

I've been thinking some more about what I long for, but the more time I spend pondering the question, the further away I feel from an answer. Maybe the answer is that I don't know - perhaps I need to be more concerned with discovering rather than realizing what I long for.