(Wednesday evening)

Enthusiasm for the 20/20 club seems to be waning. I'm not sure I fully thought out all of the possible implications and repercussions when I launched the proposal. I think some people might be feeling left out because they decided not to do it, because it's just not their thing. That's the last thing I wanted; I thought this could help build unity and camaraderie, not make someone feel left out or abandoned. Others who are doing it seem to be less than enthusiastic, and I hope I don't have to start strong-arming potential dropouts into staying the course.

I tend to get easily frustrated by what I perceive to be as weakness in others... I think that everyone should be as "tough" as I am (mentally/physically/spiritually/emotionally), and if they're not then they need to try to be. Truth is, people can be tough and disciplined in many ways, some of which I'm sure I'm pathetically weak in. And when it comes right down to it, who am I to judge others and decide how tough they are or are not?

All that to say, it still grieves me when a dream or a goal I have doesn't work out exactly as I envisioned it. Maybe that explains why I tend to be hesitant to pursue some dreams of mine that linger on the fringes of feasibility... I'd hate to fail.